What motivates you to get things done?

I've had this this problem for an entire year now, so it's about time I try to do something to fix it before it ruins me and any possible dreams I could have...

Ever since about this time last year, I have slowly lost will to do anything that requires a higher state of mental awareness. At first it really was only a case of writer's block, but over time it leaked into other aspects of school curriculum, whitiling down my grades and self-worth. It didn't help when I got a perfect score on an incomplete (as in rough-edged) year-long assignment and still managed to be in the top 10% of my class even with my grade drop. It really felt like I didn't deserve any of this. I knew there were some people working quite a bit harder than was, but yet I still managed to do better than them. Natural superiority is not always a very good feeling you know...

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Enter this year where all I can do is drag my grades barely past passing. I've tried telling myself the the only thing in the way is myself, and that I used to have some joy in working and still can. After that, I resorted to chiding myself and praticly cut myself off from gaming and reading due to the attention span that they require and I didn't have any more; I was too busy not doing my work... But now I feel like I'm starting to become numb to my grief, but know if I do, it will take much more to lift me out.

I don't know what to do. Like I told a few of you, I'm starting to go to a psychologist, but in all honesty, by the time a salave is found, it will be too late to save my place in the International Baccalaureate curriculum. And I really feel that without it, life will be much tougher for me later on...

If you read through all of this, well, thanks. I really don't like to be this depressing and such a mood killer, but I have to do what I have to do... If you have any advice or suggestions, please leave them down below. Thanks...