Really more “scared” than “apprehensive,” but it’ll do.

E3 has been going on for a few days now, and we’ve gotten some exciting information so far (mostly from Sony, in my opinion). I am particularly excited for the new Spider-Man game after seeing the latest trailer, despite largely ignoring it up until now. However, I would trade everything E3 has to offer for the Nintendo Direct occurring today. Nintendo has a power over me that will likely go unrivaled for my entire life, at least in the context of video games. Big Nintendo presentations are magical, especially the ones that you know will be jam-packed with exciting surprises. With that said though, this creates a certain uneasiness that is common when I’m looking forward to something this much.

For those of you who celebrate Christmas, tell me if this sounds familiar: during the holiday season you’re excited out of your mind at the thought of the gifts you will receive as well as the reactions from the ones you will give, but there is an underlying concern that the experience won’t be as incredible as you’ve envisioned it. This happens to me annually, this apprehension that things won’t go perfectly on one of my favorite days of the year. While Nintendo’s E3 presentation isn’t quite Christmas, it creates the same strange feeling for me. I know I should temper my expectations and just enjoy the show, but I can’t help building it up in my mind. This could be one of the most exciting days I’ve had in a long time if its anything like the last time Smash was at E3, but that potential is what has me worried. What if the presentation is underwhelming? What if Smash doesn’t blow my mind like I expect it to? That gap between expectation and reality would likely crush my spirits for a while, pathetic as that sounds. I shouldn’t be concerned about something so ridiculously trivial, but I am all the same.

That’s not to say I’m not looking forward to the Direct. My fear of this unlikely disappointment won’t stop me from enjoying the anticipation or delivery of the show. I just thought I might quickly describe this goofy personality quirk I’ve got before I most likely lose my mind at what Nintendo has to show us today. Let me know if any of you share this weirdly specific, counter-intuitive feeling. It’d be nice to know I’m not alone in my insanity.