So the Steam Summer Sale started up today, and for the first time in my life, I slowly scrolled down the page... and then closed the window. Yea, I’ve pretty much reached that point in my life where I’ve just come to terms with the fact that I don’t need any more games right now.

Hell, I’ve come to terms with the fact that I can’t even finish the games I do own now, and likely never will. I’ve been having these thoughts for awhile, as I’m certain most of us have, but I finally had an epiphany while streaming on Monday night. I was playing Fallout 4, after weeks of not even considering playing it due to what I consider the Barriers of Entry to RPGs. For 90 minutes, I casually enjoyed catching up with my audience as I did a few “go kill shit” missions for the Brotherhood of Steel, and then proceeded to fill up my inventory with Green Paint cans for Diamond City. Overall it was an enjoyable enough time, but after closing down the stream, it hit me: “I am never going to finish this game.” I joked about it in Battleborn’s recent piece on losing his save file, but now I’m pretty stone-cold serious about it.

The Witcher II, Pillars of Eternity, Bioshock Infinite, Deus Ex: Human Revolution, Final Fantasy VII, Dark Souls, and many others, they’ll just sit, untouched, for a long time.

Previously such a thought used to fill me with dread. I’d try to plan up “gaming days” where I could just take a day off from work and jump into an adventure, but I’ve noticed my habits... it never happens. I’m always either paralyzed with choice, unable to commit to one particular game for the day, or worried about not having enough time to truly feel like I’ll have accomplished anything, which invariably leads to me doing nothing. Remember that Fallout 4 stream I mentioned? I finished 3 quests, 2 of which are repeatable throw-aways. I felt like I hadn’t done anything noteworthy, and yet when looking in my quest-log, there’s easily 12 other things I could have done, but chose not to.

I don’t understand it either. I can’t tell if I’m hitting a gaming rut, or just dedicating too much time to meaningless things like enjoying YouTube content, or more casual games like Hearthstone. I’m really not sure if there’s anything I can do to fix it, but at least now I’m starting to come to terms with it. I’m very likely not going to finish so many wonderful master-works of gaming. Tragic as that is, it’s just reality.

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How are you guys feeling about your gaming habits as of late? Do you feel like you’re progressing at a pace you’re happy with, or have you come to accept that you just have less time in the day for the games you want to play?

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