We all play video games for a release from our mundane lives. We either take to the skies as a space pirate, or save the Earth in large scale fire fights. Some times a game will strike you much deeper, and stay with you for years to come. With the recent release on the PSN, I was reminded of my title. For me, that title is Shin Megami Tensei: Nocturne.

I still remember when I first found out about this game; I never played the Persona or Persona 2 on PSone, although I had heard of them. I was very much stuck on Final Fantasy, Tales, and Lunar through that generation, but found once I moved to PS2, I was yearning for something different.

But I am not going to review this game (yet), I am going to talk about why I love it so much. There was something enticing about the title; the dark story line, the post apocalyptic purgatory of a world, the intense difficulty. It was a game that I was drawn to, and eventually buckled and purchased. I was 17 at the time and had just moved to a new state, where I had no friends, and lacked the desire to make any. I was ready to leave and go off to college, and I spent my time alone at home. I became a recluse, seeking for more interaction with a controller than that of a person. I spent a good chunk of time reading about new games, checking what people were saying, and seeking for what solidified with me at that moment.

I spent well over 100 hours of that year digging deeper through the conception, lighting each flame of my candelabra with the death of a fiend, and digesting the powers of Magatama. I was absorbed into it, and could have cared less about the lack of social interaction. Maybe it wasn't the healthiest choice, but it was the choice I made for that year.

I still brush it off whenever I am feeling down, or just overwhelmed, and start it up. It has become a sort of digital security blanket, something that helps calm my mind and reassures me. While it isn't something you can simply pick up and put down, it turns into a game you don't want to.